Acting as If

Besides working on furniture and dreaming up beautiful decorating solutions for empty spaces, I really love learning about and discussing the broader subjects of who we are and what we are here to do on this planet (individually and collectively).  I was just watching a rerun of Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday (http://www.oprah.com/app/super-soul-sunday.html) online, where  the discussion was revolving around finding what makes us happy and spending more time doing it.

So, I wanted to spend some time additional time expanding on why I started this blog and why I am taking this leap of faith sharing what matters to me and makes me tick.  Over the last ten years since I graduated from college, I have been struggling to find my place in the world.  Until the last few years, I have been making choices and building a life in some regards based on pure survival, not joy or happiness.

For many years I have been one those people who was always looking towards the next better thing in life – – “oh, if I get this job, then I will be happy,” or “if I have this degree, than I will be able to get that other job, and then I will be happy”…or “if I move here than I will have more space and will be able to do this, this, and that, THEN, I will be happy.”  I think it all came to a head after I had my wonderful son and I realized, I still wasn’t fully content nor did I feel like I had found my true purpose in this life.  This was hard to admit to myself, let alone my family and friends because in many ways I felt like a failure and like somehow this meant I didn’t love my son how I was supposed to.  But, for me, it has been so amazing positive, because essentially my son was the catalyst for me to look within and figure out what I wanted out of life.  And to answer the question of WHO AM I REALLY?!?

Well, I have been on this official journey for 165 days (I have been keeping track in my journal…J) and am making progress.  SO – l hope you will indulge me as I will continue to share my furniture journey, but will also share my personal one, including what I learn and all my ups & downs.  This is the first leap I am taking; really, to follow what makes ME happy.  Since, I am not currently spending my days doing what brings me joy, nor am not exactly sure what that is yet, I am acting as if…  I am having an attitude of joy, love, and gratitude and am trying to live in that space every moment.   Keyword is TRYING – it can be very challenging at times!

Below is my very first set of business cards for Sophia Restoration!  I am trusting that my business will grow in whatever capacity necessary and that I will hopefully need these  – and just the idea of doing something on a daily basis that feeds my soul and allows me to be creative is enough for me right now.  I know that this is the first change of many to come that will help me live the authentic life I am yearning for, but am not exactly sure how that will look just yet.  I am putting my trust in the Universe to help me figure how the rest…

Business Card

Thanks for reading!! More to come.

Xoxo-Sonni

One thought on “Acting as If

  1. Thank you for your open and honest journal of your experiences. It is inspirational and joyful. Loving your furniture and life journey.

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