Besides working on furniture and dreaming up beautiful decorating solutions for empty spaces, I really love learning about and discussing the broader subjects of who we are and what we are here to do on this planet (individually and collectively). I was just watching a rerun of Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday (http://www.oprah.com/app/super-soul-sunday.html) online, where the discussion was revolving around finding what makes us happy and spending more time doing it.
So, I wanted to spend some time additional time expanding on why I started this blog and why I am taking this leap of faith sharing what matters to me and makes me tick. Over the last ten years since I graduated from college, I have been struggling to find my place in the world. Until the last few years, I have been making choices and building a life in some regards based on pure survival, not joy or happiness.
For many years I have been one those people who was always looking towards the next better thing in life – – “oh, if I get this job, then I will be happy,” or “if I have this degree, than I will be able to get that other job, and then I will be happy”…or “if I move here than I will have more space and will be able to do this, this, and that, THEN, I will be happy.” I think it all came to a head after I had my wonderful son and I realized, I still wasn’t fully content nor did I feel like I had found my true purpose in this life. This was hard to admit to myself, let alone my family and friends because in many ways I felt like a failure and like somehow this meant I didn’t love my son how I was supposed to. But, for me, it has been so amazing positive, because essentially my son was the catalyst for me to look within and figure out what I wanted out of life. And to answer the question of WHO AM I REALLY?!?
Well, I have been on this official journey for 165 days (I have been keeping track in my journal…J) and am making progress. SO – l hope you will indulge me as I will continue to share my furniture journey, but will also share my personal one, including what I learn and all my ups & downs. This is the first leap I am taking; really, to follow what makes ME happy. Since, I am not currently spending my days doing what brings me joy, nor am not exactly sure what that is yet, I am acting as if… I am having an attitude of joy, love, and gratitude and am trying to live in that space every moment. Keyword is TRYING – it can be very challenging at times!
Below is my very first set of business cards for Sophia Restoration! I am trusting that my business will grow in whatever capacity necessary and that I will hopefully need these – and just the idea of doing something on a daily basis that feeds my soul and allows me to be creative is enough for me right now. I know that this is the first change of many to come that will help me live the authentic life I am yearning for, but am not exactly sure how that will look just yet. I am putting my trust in the Universe to help me figure how the rest…
Thanks for reading!! More to come.